Perfectly Imperfect Purpose

June 07, 2021

Woman sitting on window seat arching back with head looking to the sky
“Window Seat” March 2021 in Milan, Italy

The idea of “divine timing”, and what it means in my life, today.

When we endure challenges in our life, we often consider the idea of “everything happens for a reason”. Sometimes, this may be contradicted with “right person, wrong time”. On other occasions supported, with “wrong time, wrong place”. All too frequently, I have found myself and others seeking to grasp control on situations which are beyond our capabilities.

This does not seek to de-validate or belittle the struggles we face. Whether the growth or lesson is visible in the moment or rather, down the line, each event in our lives is a tool in paving the way of our present as we proceed toward the future. Time is ever-changing, constantly flowing. There is no doubting that, with no stop either. It is up to us to take the initiative on adjusting our perspective and how we optimize acceptance of this.

Sometimes we have to acknowledge our contributions which have an impact versus those of which exceed our parameters. Often times, we endure hardships that ultimately lead to something greater than we could expect. While we can gage a concept and idea as we follow in pursuit of our dreams, we must be open to what the universe has to offer us as well.

“Divine Timing”. This concept is expressed by Denby Sheather, Shamanic Therapist at Yoga Spirit Journeys, stating “Once you’ve experienced this, you will never doubt the mysterious and magical ways of the universe again.”.

Essentially, this theory acknowledges the topic of time and how we spend it. Reinforcing the idea of our inabilities to fully understand everything, however honoring the ways we live in the now – with love and light.

Young girl watching the waves crash at a beach sunset
Watching the sunset as a child

Our energy and mindset becomes the barrier between thoughts and the outcomes. Keeping that in mind, this does not mean we necessarily anticipate things to happen exactly as we plan. Instead, this expresses how we respond and utilize this as we approach what we may not have accounted for initially.

There is no fixed timeline or path in pursuit of your goals. You are perfectly imperfect as you are, and there is beauty in this. Each and every day, with every breath, you are living in a time unlike any other as you seek your greater purpose in this world. Remember your inner child, as you kinder that youthful spirit and dreamlike perspective. Be patient toward yourself, trust your intuition, and explore the avenues as you manifest your future into reality.

A Season of Change

May 2021

Fresh Florals at the Farmer’s Market

In the midst of spring, the weather begins to warm, trees are growing, as flowers blossom.

Springtime is often attributed as a time of awakening and rebirth. This is evident in nature and within ourselves, as we embrace this time as we transition out of winter.

Spring Time

Born on April 7th, 2001, I celebrate my birthday during this season annually. This year especially, the sense of rebirth has impacted me in personal and spiritual development, as I grow and evolve with the season. As I concluded the last bit of my time as a teenager, this shift affected me significantly. In reflection, this has been met with bliss to embrace this period.

Oftentimes, I have felt present in the living body of which my mental state was surpassed. In other words, it has seemed I felt older than I am. Growing up, this was shown as I have been told I am “beyond my years” throughout what seems the entirety of my life, thus far. With birthdays in particular, I annually am met with a sense of uncertainty as I move forward into each year, unexpectant to what is in the present, unforeseeable.

Looking into the future may bring a sense of uncertainty at times, knowing we cannot plan or prepare for quite everything that is brought our way. Recently returning home from staying abroad in Milan, Italy for work purposes, I was fortunate to be brought with lucidity and reassurance for my aspirations at this point. Clarity has brought distinction with the ongoing pursuit of my ambitions as a creative. Entering 20 years of life, with 20/20 vision, there is a sense of comfort and acceptance of my efforts in making my dreams as part of my reality.

Giardini Indro Montanelli in Milan, Italy

While we cannot expect anything, our appreciation for all life brings as we work toward accomplishments toward our goals may lead us to the answers we seek. Along the path we take, come the choices we make and actions we take. In doing so, these lead us perfectly – imperfectly finding our inner destiny. Once you feel compelled with a sense of calling, taking risks and chances are necessary to achieve our destiny.

Welcoming the idea that some people, places, and things in our life are brought to us for a reason, season, or a lifetime, has been a quote which has resonated with me. In making decisions and taking leaps, I have thanks to my therapist for helping me understand we know what is rational and realistic in this sense. To elaborate, we know ourselves best and can evaluate what we do. With that in mind, along our journey, it is inevitable we are to make mistakes.

Risks are essential to be taken. In pushing our comfort zone, we push the boundaries. If we hold back, we are only left with “what-ifs”, “what could be’s”, and others left unknown. Though at times easier said than done, acting on these questions can provide the answers we seek. With courage and confidence, some of the possibilities in our ventures will bring us to the fate we anticipate. In our heads, it is much easier to sit back as thoughts of anxieties leave us in wonder. Dwelling on the past or worry in the future only holds us back from being able to enjoy our presence in the mystery of now.

April 4, 2021

With efforts in self acceptance, love, and light, I welcome springtime, as we turn the page to summer. In thanks to what was and appreciation for what will someday be. Seeking to optimize every moment that I am fortunate to see. For there is more warmth, blooming, and growth to come. Everything happens in divine timing as part of our purpose in this beautiful, ever-changing world of endless possibilities.

2020 in Review

Looking back in summary of the year from a personal standpoint.

“2020 is the year I thought I would achieve everything I had wanted. Instead, I have appreciated everything I already have.”

Masks as the “New Normal”. 2020

While I consider what this year has brought, it has without doubt been one with many highs and lows. As I navigate the uncertainty, I have been brought to recognize my gratitude for who I am from within. In doing so, I have recognized the value of my thoughts, energy, relationships, and deepest hopes and desires. 

Without a doubt, I expected this year to take an extremely different course than the way it has unfolded. As a nineteen year old, I have grown into my last year as a teenager. Although this year looked quite a bit different than I could have ever predicted, I have grown so much. In recognition of the hardships faced from a global standing, there is absolutely no way to minimize the hurt it has made in impact across the world. Keeping this in mind, I am utilizing this as an entry to disconnect from the severity of the issue we are continuing to face and work through. Amid these circumstances, I have found a closer connection to myself than ever before.

photo by Tuan Pham

To best summarize areas which have been most prevalent, I have sub-points to touch on topics of prevalent discussion. 

Mental health. Though I have come to be in tune with myself and my internal feelings, this year especially has brought attention to my mental health and awareness as well as management. Through empathy, I feel everything deeply, which can feel self consuming at times. I am concluding this year better aware of who I am, my desires and worth, as well as allowing myself to set boundaries and accept the beauty of imperfection in this world. Initially, this year started off with difficulty in this subject for myself. Fortunately, I overcame obstacles and found myself getting into therapy. Helping minimize the stigma is something I am grateful as part of my generations efforts to bring recognition and resources for all those who may need it. I found a therapist who is best suited to myself personally and have grown immensely, with internal and external results, throughout the course of my appointments. While I am credited with application of the tools I have learned to better navigate my struggles, I have immense gratitude for the benefits and how fortunate I am to receive these privileges. This year alone has near forced me to engage and look within as the world seemingly came to a pause, as we have stayed at home.

You are not alone.

Grief. I never could have anticipated events this year, which have indubitably resulted to feelings of grief. This year, my family and I suddenly mourned the passing of my Great-Grandmother, Delphine Rose. It is with immense love and appreciation, I have lived near all of my 19 years of life – thus far, with her in the home. Without a doubt, she has been a mentor and a parental figure in my life. This tragic passing has had a vast impact on my family, though we can all come together to find peace, unity, and faith. While we speak of her, it is with the utmost light and honor toward who she has always been as a person. Fortunately, we were able to gather in remembrance of her beautiful 94 years of life.

Work. The world has faced drastic impacts while continuing to recover and work through the economic and health effects, among many others, due to the pandemic. My industry in particular, the modeling industry, has been no exception. While we as a society are continuing to seek ways to best manage and work around any necessary alteration, this year has been sparse for many. In an ever-changing climate, travel has been of course limited this year. I am appreciative of the relationships I have with people within the industry, as this has led me to meeting some of my closest friends in pursuit of my dreams. Looking back, I can enjoy the shoots and bookings I was able to attend, although it further drives my ambition to accelerate and grow in this industry as the new year is welcomed.

Education. In terms of schooling, I have been able to approach learning with less self inflicted pressure and perfectionism as I better understand my own mental health management for my feelings of anxiety. My first semester began online, as I chose this option as the best fit for my personal work / life schedule, although obstacles were imposed due to COVID-19. I have maintained a 4.0 through the spring, summer, and now fall semester. While I was challenged with classes beyond my usual area of comfort from which I excel, these were overcome with further knowledge and understanding in a positive way. With this completed, I have one more semester to begin 2021 prior to my plans to transfer.

Writing. From education, I am brought to writing. In part with the status of our world, I have had additional time and regained perspective on my future plans. As I have entered college with interest in journalism, this year I connected and joined the Newspaper at my school. Utilizing this outlet has brought me great pleasure, as writing is one of my passions and a path I intend to continue with. While I continue, I was brought to create my website, with ultimate results shown as I grow to improve in my writing. Amid these outcomes, I am happy to have found this community of love, encouragement, and support toward achieving goals.

Worldview. As a nation, this year has drawn intense focus toward the status of our country in reference to subjects which have prior lacked appropriate attention. In response to tragic occurrences in events which have been issues, this year has sparked a deeper discussion on topics of humanity and rights. With that said, here are ways to help contribute toward Black Lives Matter. As for any issues simultaneously occurring, I encourage seeking further knowledge from those appropriate to bring awareness, recognition, insight, and change. I am continuing to further learn and understand how I can be a better ally and improve. In addition, I encourage using resources for Women’s Rights as well as LBGTQ+ rights. While this is brief and limited, I encourage you to seek attention to help advocate for the challenges we face in this world. With that said, click here for additional resources related to COVID-19. Within the country, tensions rose as the 2020 Presidential Election came to the forefront, also the first I was eligible and therefore voted in. Our world needs more love, progress, and growth.

Change. Without much detail, it is safe to say this year has been one of change. This is seen from new birth, loss, and other transformation from the top of this year, by welcoming my niece – Haven, a new puppy – Pearl, moving and renovating bedrooms, among a continuous list. Redirection of focus, realignment of the self, and greater emphasis on the important things within this life. While it can impose difficulty, change is inevitable in a constantly evolving universe. As there is not much else to do but to accept it, I have become more keen to shift my approach as I make effort to turn what it may entail in a positive way.

Family & Friends. I am truly blessed to have the best family and friends by my side that I may ask for. Their everlasting love and support has only become more noticeable throughout the course of this year. With changes in ways of connection and communication, I can always rely on them for encouragement, advice, a shoulder to lean on, among many laughs. In any obstacles, I am only brought to become a better person in my relationships as I apply them to myself as an individual. In continuing, I look forward to what the future has in store for us all.

Dreams & Aspirations. I have regained direction and attention in recognizing what I aspire to achieve in my life. My priorities may have shifted slightly, and not everything has become as it may have once seemed, however I feel this is at the long term greater interest. I look forward to continuing on these efforts from the inside and out, in work, relationships, schooling, with who I am and what I do at large. I have emphasized what I truly want, and look forward to how it all will come to be.

Needless to say, this is a brief summary of some of the most prominent areas targeted as this year has flowed from one area to another. I am imperfect, ever-growing and changing, and I appreciate the ways this will continue to happen as the future becomes the present.

In loving memory, of Delphine Rose 1924-2020

Cheers to 2021. May it be a year of positive health, wellness, family, friends, and dreams becoming a reality. To peace and prosperity…

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Local Non-Profit Spotlight: Operation Empty Cages

Providing or subsidizing spay and neuter surgeries, helping prevent millions of unwanted pets in our shelter systems and reducing shelter euthanasia.

Saturday, October 17, 2020

Dog in cage being pet
Dog in Cage source: Helena Lopes Pexels

RIVERSIDE COUNTY, Calif. — As a nonprofit, Operation Empty Cages provides wellness, resources, and education to people and pets within the local community. Their vision is to ensure accessible spay, neuter, and veterinary services to pet owners in the Riverside County area of California, which covers 7,600 square miles and includes large unincorporated areas within the county.

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Operation Empy Cages logo. Source: Operation Empty Cages

MSJC alumni Tiffany Hines is the CEO and founder of OEC. In 2018, Tiffany suffered a heart attack, then had open heart surgery in 2019, and was just recently diagnosed with RA, an incurable autoimmune disorder. All of these events have affected her greatly and she said, “I feared never being able to help animals again”. As she continues to fulfill the mission of this nonprofit, Hines says, “my love for animals wouldn’t allow that.”

With a unique, all-volunteer approach, OEC operates solely on donations, sponsors, grants, and fundraising provide their services to the general public. The basic intent of OEC is to provide or help to subsidize spay and neuter surgeries for pets. The services provided by OEC help to prevent millions of unwanted pets in our shelter systems and therefore, reduces shelter euthanasia. The non-profit also helps by offering microchipping, vaccinations, reuniting lost pets with their families, and reducing pet related communicable diseases.

OEC depends on the support from the community to achieve their aspirations of empty shelter cages. They seek to educate the community about the personal and collective benefits of spaying and neutering pets. While this helps prevent medical and behavioral issues, these medical procedures work to end the cycle of shelter euthanasia. Annually, thousands of pets are euthanized due to lack of homes, and other issues within the shelter system.

Woman hugging Dalmatian
Woman hugging Dalmatian source: Shevstova Pexels

Hines explained that OEC is also currently helping a local homeless community with approximately 60 dogs. Hines and the team at OEC are working on, “logistics to get them all spayed, neutered, chipped, dewormed, and flea and tick treatment.”

With individual efforts, pet owners do their part to contribute to a solution. In reducing these numbers, OEC helps families unable to afford these procedures through grants. To save thousands of lives each year with these actions, this organization is dependent upon donations and contributions from people willing to engage in any capacity they can to this work which saves lives.

OEC provides animal welfare information and services to seek necessary change in the system. With prevention programs and operation intervention, assistance is granted to keep pets in their loving homes. Applications are available online for spay and neuter vouchers for eligible families seeking these services.

There are multiple ways to help this nonprofit and to help save the lives of animals.

Woman interacting with Dalmation
Woman interacting with Dalmatian source: Daria Shevstova Pexels

Tax-deductible donations are accepted through the following:


Donation via PayPal


PO Box 154

San Jacinto, CA 92581


(951) 775-0557

In addition, OEC has an online shop.

For further contact inquires, email is available:

Operation Empty Cages seeks to help and save local pets, they explain “We are their voices.” They also are looking for volunteers of all types and can be contacted using the information above.